Big changes have been happening in my home. Of which have kept me from blogland....well the writting part anyway. I still have been keeping up on the blogs I have come to love to read.
A few weeks ago I made a BIG decision one that has been comming for a long time but I had held out hope that I would not need to do so. I split with my husband of 7yrs.
Over the years I have had to do a lot of fighting for the relationship of which I had had enough of doing. It's time I was able to be myself without the constant worry of how that would impact upon others.
It is a heart breaking moment but then again it is like I can breath again and feel content in making the decision. There are moments of absolute terror over the fact the 'family" is not the traditional family and me asking myself "oh my god what have I done" then I realise it's most definately for the best and we both can go repair ourselves and become happy with ourselves. Better do it like we have than become bitter people at one another which is not good when there are children involved. as DRr Phil says "children would rather come from a broken family than live in a broken home".
The children seem to be dealing with it rather well so well that Jazynthe rather confidently anounced in class that "my Dad has left our house but I still will get to see him" Fingers crossed she will remain this good about it and will continue to be the wonderful girl she is. Jaedyn is too young to understand what is going on and is used to Dad not being around for what would seem to him like long periods of time due to his job.